Friday, March 6, 2009

It's starting to get to me.

I need confidence. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need to stop over-analysing. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need to open up. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need to find the words. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need Taylor Swift to quit stalking us. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need to stop being so paranoid. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need an income. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need my B.K album to arrive in the mail. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need answers. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need to loosen up. (It's starting to get to me.)
I
need to unravel my ribbons. (It's starting to get to me.)

I'm working on it all... Because I love him. ^.^


Thursday, March 5, 2009

Fell in love with a girl.

Fucking fuck fuck. The world MUST agree at just how nifty this vid is! (Mind you, I am a ridiculously huge White Stripes fan...)



Fell in love with a girl
I fell in love once and almost completely
She's in love with the world
But sometimes these feelings
Can be so misleading
She turns and said "are you alright?"
I said "I must be fine cause my heart's still beating
Come and kiss me by the riverside, yeah
Bobby says it's fine he don't consider it cheating now"

Red hair with a curl
Mellow roll for the flavour
and the eyes for peeping
Can't keep away from the girl
These two sides of my brain need to have a meeting
Can't think of anything to do yeah
My left brain knows that our love is fleeting
She just looking for something new
Yeah, I said it once before but it bears repeating now

Monday, March 2, 2009

An absolutely corny, feminine styled post.

Attention: I have not stolen this from somebody. I am capable of feminine, gushy, LAME outbursts. It will come back to haunt me, but I'll make up for it. ;]

It's a year since I met you, since I fell so quickly for you, since those students tried teasing me in their native tongue before I even knew you, since I tried justifying myself, since I heard your beautiful voice. It's nearly a year since I realised how I felt, since I ran to the other in hope of ignoring the voices in my mind telling me I should be chasing you, since you gave me "something to think about", since I left my partner for you, since you sang to me as we held hands tenderly with uncertainty, since you kissed my neck on the curb down the road from the others, and I pulled away...
It's nearly a year since I ran, far, far away; into the arms of one who needed me more than I needed them. I think about you, more than you could believe. Though as the hours and the tiniest of moments go on, I aim to think a little less & strive to put it in the past, as hard as it is, and continue. You don't want a piece of my inconsistency, and I don't need to dwell on what only causes me to ache and long for what I'm not able to obtain nor fully understand.

Now, as the days edge closer to the moment I ran, my boxed heart is letting itself lose for another. This time however, I don't think I'll be running. I'm not allowed to. I'm not letting myself. You're not letting me. By you (no longer the first being), anybody who has talked to me in the past 3 weeks knows who I mean. They know I'm speaking of them. They also know I'm now writing this because I refuse to let them read anything I've written elsewhere. Oh giggle.

It's an absolute treasure to have a story so magical, twisted and insane. To "have" somebody, so to speak. Somebody who can at least begin to comprehend my mind. It's all quite new to me. Ah, I don't get it. I'm being helped to understand & learn new things, all over again. I've been contained so long... I think it's time I let loose. Being treated like a female and not always having lead is so incredibly odd and out of this world for me... I think it's time for another drink.

I'm wrapped in ribbons (help unravel me).